Confession is Good for the Soul

Today was one of those days you know happened because you actually lived the day, but it somehow managed to slip by like a whirlwind of activity.  I know it is about to end and that I was busy the entire day, but that’s about it.  I guess that is why blogging is good; because it forces you to think specifically about details of a day (and ignore the ones you would rather forget).

Well, today was one of those “parenthesis” days (refer to first paragraph parenthesis).  I must confess that I lost it today—just outright lost it!  Of course nobody but my wife saw it and for that I am sorry.  I don’t mean to say I am sorry only Penny saw my meltdown, but that she had to see it.  I am sure she was a bit surprised since I do not show my emotions easily. 

It’s not like I rolled my eyes back into my skull and produced fangs and produced some rabid foam from my mouth—it was actually a subdued meltdown.  I reacted to a development that led me to the precipitous conclusion that a certain individual was once again spreading misinformation with a perceived intent of manipulating people through fear and coercion.  At least that is how I felt at that moment.  I was in a state or "righteous indignation."

I detest drama!  I voiced to Penny the intent to inform this individual that a change of attitude was necessary.  I believe I said something during my tirade to the effect that “cancer must be removed.”  It was at that point that Penny in her own tender way began calming me down with slow, soft words and a few strokes on the sides of my arms.  She looked at me and said, “Are you sure about that?” or something to that effect—the point is that I blinked and just like that I was reconsidering my intransigent position and thinly veiled threats.  I felt pretty foolish. I needed the attitude adjustment!

The truth is that I still detest drama and hidden agendas—but I am working with my brothers and sisters who, not unlike me, are blind to our own foibles.  “My grace is sufficient,” are the words of Scripture to me and from me to others.

Otherwise, the day was great!  In included a full day at the office, lunch from the TAA cafeteria eaten in Penny’s office; a trip to the tire store and the car wash (my Prius was in sad shape); Barnes and Noble, and California Pizza Kitchen (for a school fundraiser).  I also enjoyed my Tuesday evening AWC pastor’s meeting in CM’s classroom at TAA.  Great times praying and talking pastor “shop talk.”  Big day tomorrow!  Major decisions are coming down the pike.  Some may get kind of dicey before they are over.  I’ll keep you posted as best I can without betraying confidence.  (229.8)